You.

When I walk, I listen to podcasts and those podcasts are usually inspirational in nature, with a message that tends to lean towards spirituality. I choose each one based on curiosity and interest in that moment with the intent to come home inspired. 

The interesting thing is that when I hear something particularly inspiring to me, something that really moves me, I think of you. 

Yep—all of you that read the things I write. I can’t imagine there are many of you, but to those of you that do come back time and time again, you may find it interesting that I think about you all the time. When I see a t-shirt with a funny, but special, meaning. When I read a sentence on a sign that has a message no one else would get but you and me. When I am particularly empowered by something and it touches me in my gut…yes…I think of you.

Very curious that one of my deepest, most profound relationships is with a (likely very) small audience of people that may or may not occasionally drop by to read what I have to say, yet I would never know it if you did or did not anyway. A (likely very) small audience that most of whom I do not know or may have met here or there, yet my deepest hope is that you do drop by, read what I have to say, then walk away deeply affected, inspired, empowered and with a palpable feeling of power.

I’m pretty sure there is some universe-cracking-open explanation and meaning to all that, however, I’ll leave that to those whose job it is to crack open said universe to figure that one out.

Would you believe me if I told you that writing to you is one of the most therapeutic, empowering, soul-scrubbing things I do for my own self care? Yes, yes, yes…I journal as well and that helps me purge my mind and my heart like you could never imagine, but writing to you is my therapy. I always hope it helps you along your way and holds you in that moment as if I’m right there giving you a big hug, but it just wouldn’t be right if I didn’t admit to you that, selfishly, it is what lifts me up and keeps me going. When I experience something that moves me, I feel so compelled to share it with you and when I do that, it’s as if I can take this huge exhale and then relax.

If I hear an exceptionally meaningful sentence, I instantly have to pause the podcast and jot it down in the Notes app on my phone. Sometimes it takes me an hour and a half walk to listen to an hour podcast because I keep stopping so that I don’t forget what I thought was so brilliant before I get to share it with you.

I never know if you read this stuff. I think it’s better that way. I could look at the numbers on my blog but I never do and there is no way to track who has read anything I’ve ever written on social media. If I found out none of you ever read any of it, I might become discouraged and stop writing and as I’ve admitted, my soul would not be very happy about that. If I found out a lot of you read any of it, I might become nervous and feel the weight to continue to write, possibly making what I have to say less genuine. I just couldn’t have that.

So, I will keep writing for you, even if I have no idea if you ever really read what I write. Just know that I’m thinking about you all the time, and now and again I will write to you. Those writings will always come full of care for you, curiosity about you, and a deep wish of wellness to you. 

Be well, my friend. I’ll write again soon.

E